Thursday, October 30, 2003
Never realli a hp freak..somehwo caught a glimpse of dis chinese show and wong li ling is holding dis red and real flat phone...hmmm..looks realli gd..
tink dat's fr samsung..
but i tink dis is cool..somemore can support jay!ahhahaa
Back To The Past
A yellow and old light
Time is at the side, suffocating without uttering a word
Loneliness starts with completely no sense of propriety
Don�t understand the difference between light and heavy
Silence
Propping up jumps across strange
Quietly watching early dawn and dusk
Your body shape
Loses balance
Slowly sinks
Darkness is already flying around in mid air
Should proceed where, I cannot see
Maybe love is in another end of the dream
No way of living in real space
I want to go back to the past
I am trying to hold you in my arms
The sheepish face carries a bit of childishness
I want to see
The world you see
I want to be in your dream�s frame
As long as I can depend on being together I can then feel the sweetness
I want to go back to the past
I am trying to let the story continue
At least I don�t let you leave me again
Divert time's attention
This time I will hold you even more tightly
I request you to stay like this, I don�t know if I am too late or not
I want to go back to the past
My thoughts are unceasingly stopping memories from being broadcasted
Blindly chasing and searching, still vastly empty
The dusky night, I am sleepy but I don�t know where to hide
The moment I turned around, loneliness is already lying by my side
still procrastinating...whether to shift dis blog...hahaha
guess its pure laziness and shitty dat i hav to take all the trouble to do dat..
anyway...haven been blogging...hmm wat else's missing?
ohh yeah...movie Kill Bill Vol.1..
ultra gruesome...bloody....ultra-sleek music....haha
am in love w samurai swords...wooo....the angle....the shiny blade.....the sheath...
hahahhaa..always knew i hav a violent streak
had an awesome time w u gals =)
k...Brown Brothers Floral Muscat is WOO HOO!!so sweet...gosh..
and weird factor alertt...actualli bought the exact same one as mich...*.*
hahha tell me abt it babe!=)
haven eaten so much meat since i dunno when..almost felt carnivorous..
thus the guilty animal-lover in me chomped on the greens later...
went sch zombified...coz got up early to wash my hair...
zit on nose is slowly turning me into dis devious witch-like person...
sigh...
anyway...sent an sms to smone...well...sigh...last nite till now no reply...
hmmm too tired to tink up all the poss reasons of nt sending an sms back..
A sign fr the Big Guy?*frown*
onslaught of compos r here again...expected avalanche of papers on mon..
kinda blessed smone is doing one of my stack as second marker...
kinda relieved of 1 compo remarking and one class of paper 2
dun ask me y....when there's dis kinda blessing..i receive!!
Monday, October 27, 2003
Hip hopped alone todae..yay coz noor d's back!but a lil sad coz no sidekick..even said hi to the regular blonde gal in the class...tok abt being sociable!
collected my nice Topshop pants after sweating for half an hr in the gym...
ran for a while and realise i didnt wear socks!
gosh...so painful...suspected case of blisters on both feet...
was actualli tinking if i shld be wearing ankle guard on both legs..haha
one side obvious coz still recovering..the other;s kinda aching..old injury acting up..
sigh...and i will look either realli dumb or realli limp..no lame...watever!
sigh..ran till all the stuff inside me came out...feel much lighter and relaxed now..set my target to go gym more often..like on wed!tink i realli need the added pump..physically and mentally.
k..honest tots:
Contemplated d/l jay's qing tian fr those ever-in-ur-face ringtone ads on the newpaper...well..consider it this close..hahaha
hey free preview leh...hmm...
sigh..wun nt mind a guy like him..quiet...melancholic...dumb...talented...loves music..
he aint ugly....he's my guy!!
hahhaa...yeah..can hear u guys gagging already =P
Sunday, October 26, 2003
Regrets?realise something is amiss when i read piper's blog..
ok..i still dun know wat hap but in her own words...it was crash n burn...which sounds so much like zzk's use of slash n burn the other time..
i realli hope my frustrations r not misdirected coz dats how i felt at the moment when my fingers r on dis keyboard...
i take full responsibility for my actions..so whoever it is...dun blame piper or zzk...
mebbe i was a lil harsh..but teh ultimate aim is to get away fr the situation...
call it desperate...when it comes to stuff like dis..i always RUN..
and hey will i RUN...juz ask chris or jordan..
at least jordan has dat capacity for the frenship to continue..
sigh...i m old...these stuff r nt meant for ppl of my age...
tink secondary sch...juvenile...yup..u r on the rite train of thought
tink happy tots...in a few hrs time its audz bday..
HAPPY BIRTHDAE DEARIE!!!*muacks*
and wed mtg my darlings for get together,,sigh,,
i miss ya all....LOTS!!!
Cool Quote dat is juz so...APT!
No problem is so formidable that you can't walk away from it.
Charles M. Schulz (1922 - 2000)
Have u ever?
sigh..have u ever been thru some shit dats kinda unsolicited..
juz happens to fall along ur path and wat did u knoe?its sticky and slimy and goos on ur shoes...making u totalli TOTALLI uncomfy and disgusted...
trying to scrap off the remant clumps but i wld first have to get something that can be effective in getting it out...
and dis means i cant borrow it fr anyone coz no one wans the shit to be on their stuff...
EVERYONE STAY CLEAR!
So...if u r reading dis and wanna know how it aplies to u..read below:
a) You realise u r the shit
Pls...juz get out of my life!stop reading my blog or invading my life until u r sane...
stop pissing all ur frens off..coz u stink and when ppl get near u..their lives stink
too..
Spare them..they dun deserve it!
b) You realise u r the frens who cant lend me anything
Its alrite...i understd...no ones wan their hands to get dirty...not blaming anyone...
there's enuff blame gg on as it is..
c) You realise u do not understd a single shit wat i m talking abt
Gd for u!You r an uninvolved party...so knowing how i pissed i m..mebbe u can be
a darling and be sweet to me during dis period of shit removal..appreciate it!
Saturday, October 25, 2003
suddenly rem wat i wanan say abt the movie..tots of my kiddos morphing into any of the guys featured tore my heart..
it could hav been any one..poss those who dun do well...and hav family probs..
self-mutilation...stuff...i cant begin to describe wat else...
had a major revelation today thanks to some frens..sigh...cant even tink abt it...
anyway..mich was telling me abt her dream...abt me and shank..
weird..but somehow he did ran thru my mind today..
forgot to pray abt wat elison asked...sigh...wodner how and wat to share tom..
long dae again...cant bear the tot of dat..
crashing..so long
Friday, October 24, 2003
15
yeah...juz caught it @ plaza sing...having second tots now abt tattoos and piercings..
somhow..cant seem to shake off some tots..
imagine wat my kids wil be like next time..whether they will end up like ofd the guys protrayed...
my heart kinda aches @ the tot of dat....
dunno y..tots r blocked...will add on later if my brain is stil functioning..
sat mtg lillian for work review..sigh..so early!
and brownies..dis time taking the p4s all alone as the others hav stuff to do..
muz clear my work...so the kiddos can revise...
tink dats wats getting me dwn...so tired so much work..
wondering if pms is here..
Wednesday, October 22, 2003
LAst Dae!!!dis is jzu not my dae...lost the post i ttyped!!!urgghhhh...
let;s c wat i can rem..
oh the notoriety of some marking centres dat never fail to shock me...
makes me realise y we aint gonna be PROFESSIONALs at the rate they r treating us..
nope..never beenbehind bars...but i can pretty much make out how dat feels...to look forlornly at the gates...freedom beyond...sigh
finished at 9am but they RELEASED us @ 3!!duh!!
oh..and the horror centre stories:
1) one ordered food packs which r inedible...rice hard and dry...leftovers?40 packs on 1st dae alone
2) one apparently locked their gates and poor teachers cant get out to have their bloody lunch...eat pathetic canteen food...?!@!#$@#
3) one asm (supe in other words) fr the room next to mine insisted on making evreyone sign attendance w HER PEN...i repeat...HER PEN..for uniformity and all..
dun look at me..i dun understd either!
however..i m always been blessed =)
1) my asm...incredibly nice and flexible woman by the name of Ms Lim..40plus lady..always asking us of we r tired...go take breaks...etc..
today last dae she actualli gave us chocs as a thank you thing!out of her own pocket..sweet heart and kind soul!=)
2) met dis other lovely fren who i got to knoe and realli like in dis 4 days..Daisy fr St hilda's...worked together...lunch and breaks etc..
she's one cool PE teacher...love her frankness...her attitude towards life...she';s 30 but look hellva 27...hahha =)
a fellow movie freak...gonna catch sm shows w her someday =)
whee!!
came back den went chinese docs..okie..mum;s rite..foot is swollen...tink BAK CHANG..
instd now i hav nice white-stained-yellow-smelly bandage ard it...and nt leaves..
lucky nt serious...
and my record @dat clinic..
1st visit was 14 yrs ago!! for foot..tink i kicked some metal stuff...
2nd visit...20 yrs old...dat bad fall in bizad...right ankle...note:foot again
3rd visit...todae! 24....left Foot...
wat can i say?i hav probs w them..mite as well trade them for the hobbits' hahahha
wooo toking abt hobbits...LOTR COUNTDOWN:26 DAYS!!!
even the trailers can make me stop munching my jumbo hot dog...which led to the dribble of melted cheese on my top halfway thru...sigh..
17th Nov....legolas...u can book my entire dae!!=)
had a nap too!!after sooo long...and of coz...the drool theory..
when u realise u drooled in ur sleep..it juz means u had a gd if not great sleep!
trust me on dis,,,i found a pool on my mattress...
running tots:
suddenly realise how vulnerable i will be whenever i share smthing here on this blog...guess dis is onli meant for the eyes of mich, audz, piper..so if ur name doesnt appear here and u dun knoe me personalli...get the hell outta here!!
i dun need visitors prying into my life..esp ppl i dun knoe!
and if u happen to stumble on dis blog and wanna read abt my so-called life..pls ask for authorization
see dat mini box on ur right,...yup click a msg tere and i will get back to u..
This is my private space w my chums...they can pick my brains anytime...
k..juz a pissed off tot...tot u mite wanna knoe gals!=)
Monday, October 20, 2003
MArking Dae 2realise i can actualli fall asleep with a pencil in my hand..while shading OAS....
thk God its a pencil...and for the incredible invention of an eraser..
and to tink recording is considered a blissful job...sigh...*bleh*
mum's now massaging my foot....FWAH....excuse my lang as i type...coz its fucking painful!&^%$#@#@$%^$$^%$^$^
gave up my heels...now wearing millicentimetre heel....w the gaudy back strap..
doesnt help its fr URS...juz makes it more ex den the other pairs out there
went hip hop wout guard...how silly can i get?got my scrunchie...forget my guard...
k mum;s pokinh my foot like a piece of cooked ham..to check if its swollen..
i feel weird and invaded...love my mummy!!!!*muacks*
weird guy took over noor's class....did soem okay steps but foot hurts like hell..sigh..
she better be back soon...all those stand in hip hop instructors r weird..
i mean who dances hip hop to jap music?!
sorrie...its juz salah!
juz reflecting today y i m the way i m dis daes....mebbe coz i hav been thru some wat i called tough times in my life...which may nt b to some ppl...and i've kinda knoe wat needs to be done to get out of things..
so i can tell ppl wat to do but ultimately the person has to do it alone..
lets juz say i m able to say straight out wats wrong w someone and not care how its done...and perhaps majorly unsympathetic if the person chooses to do her own way..
so need my advice?haha u better think twice...
hmm isnt it God who said let ur words be words..or smthing?hahahha
yeah...dun need to mince anything...
geez...pardonme...tinking of ba chor mee...again..
Sunday, October 19, 2003
chiJazzwent down for it again dis year...interestingly different fr last yrs...guess it;s the vocal power of an all gals' performance..
Aubrey is soooo HOT....practically smoulderig...until she starts singing some fast song where i cant hear a single word she's uttering...dat part was sickening..
and...appeal didnt last thru the hour despite her taut bod and figure..
Claressa monterio has a HOT personality...nice style...nice voice..woo
last but nt least MAndy Gates, someone who i didnt knoe till i heard her sing today..
vivacious...true-blue eneteratiner...
cool nite....cold beer....dark sky...gentle breeze blowing...jazz in the air...
all spell HEAVEN
glad i dumped my compos to go...not fabtastically fantastic but it was a gd break..
truth is procrastinator @ work again..sigh
been feelin some hidden anger inside me...dunno y...dun seem to be patient w ppl these days...
i knoe it when it comes...coz i stop tinking abt hw ppl feel and do as i please or say wat i wan...
i tink they r getting offended and somehow deep down...i dun give a hoot...
sounds scary leh?like wat i was telling cyn..i m turning into dis realli ugly and bad person...
sigh WTF is wrong w me?or is dis my natural self? dat i m been suppressed all dis while in a I-Love_Everybody nice gal's body?
onli thing i can be proud of is doing things alone..kinda like it..
can be eating alone...walking ard alone...having coffee alone...gg amore alone...
doesnt bug me anymore...
have one and a half hr to burn b4 meeting ppl?no prob..i spend quality time w my tots..*big grin*
anyway...bought couple of cds recently..actualli...well..juz 2 lah
1) Blink Blink...okie..dumb name..but chockful of hip hop songs to practice my dance moves to..ahhaha
2) Sonic Edge ~ Grateful....dis rock band dat holds monthly nite service for wayward youths...nice rock to worship songs...and anyway their name sounds like sonic flood so i tot no harm...
Updates
urs truly can now sing and pronounce better chinese in jay's songs...hahah..
fast ones at dat too!
see...u can do anything which u put ur heart into it...even if u know wat u r singing abt...but when u r singing it...u dun realli knoe the words..
ermm..yah...hope u get my drift..
elison wans us to fast n pray for dis week..and share abt stuff next week..
God, mind if u come a lil' closer to me? somehow u r so far away or mebbe i tot i am self-sufficient..
need to go running...supe dumping the post exam activity on me w minimum guidance..do or die i shoulder all....
i can smell and sence death beckoning...
mebbe its a way to get me back to BIg Guy?hmm...weird i need such stuff to do dat..
even weirder how things in my heart and my mind dun link nowadays..
kinda been frozen n numbed...
oh btw...the blog pic's aint gonna load..bro said his angelfire a/c dead..all pics gone..so no purple flowers for now..
so sad..
at least flooble;s back...thk God some things r still free
Thursday, October 16, 2003
oops..nearly forgot..
my bro has dis porno star gal's pic lookalike on his desktop...geez...she looks like ayumi?oh pls...not in a gazillion years...
and (THIS IS TO YOU BRO) stop insulting Jay k?
u and ur gollum reference....
tink who wrote songs so that ur SHE will still be hot and popular on the charts?!
Chinese has dis saying...dun tinki forgot all my cheng yus
YIN SUI SI YUAN
*bleh*
F A T
Yup..the dreaded word in any gal's vocab...with or with brains...
my girth is expanding...muz be my eating habits...sigh
A Typical Day w nadir:
Breakfast either at home or @ sch....bread made w love by mum
+ Breakfast Part 2 @ sch...if time allows...bee hoon...etc etc
+ Lunch @ 2plus....rice or noodles...spelt FAT!
+ Tea @ 4plus....essential for survival in cold freaky freezing office....anything i can
get my hands on...
= SHIT I M A DARN FAT ASS!
sigh..life sucks...this sucks..marking sucks...clearing marking for corrections sucks...loads of holidays which dun mean anything aka still need to work suck...
the onli thing i wanan suck is the fats ard my tum...
suck them all man....lipo or not...
this blog page sucks...the suckiness of it being here to stay for a while sucks...tagboard sucks coz teh sucky blog mistress aint gonna pay for her board....
S everely
U nder
C ardinal
K ookiness
sigh...even dis acrostic poem sucks...
think u get the point...this is my life rite nw..
Sunday, October 12, 2003
Who am I?Star Wars name:eliyu musin
Hobbit name: Camellia Boggy-Hillocks
Elven name: Lessien Linw螔in (sounds like Legolas...hahaha whee!)
Check it out....
Shitty
site will be back to normal asap....i hope
Friday, October 10, 2003
Coff Coff Sniff Sniffwoke up w a coconut husk stuck in my throat...sigh...MC for 2 daes..
as usual...went to sch today and forfeited one day of rest...
coz the kiddos hav orals tom..=P
things r gonna get heavier next week...mad rush to finish everything b4 PSLE marking days fri to tues..den deepavali...blah blah....
and teh dreaded SA....sigh
trying to survive under the onslaught of work...*bleh*
life's like dis...aint gonna change for a while..
haven been out dis week cept the hip hop class on mon...
realli tired and drained...skipped SOL training on tue....churchwide prayer mt on wed...
den hit by the flu virus..hope life doesnt spiral down too much...
Wednesday, October 08, 2003
Truly Blessedlotsa things to type abt sch but guess body is too tired...
will update later..
been sick on and off dis days...sigh...if its not runny nose..its headache..or both..
i busted all possible permutations & combinations..
YUCK!
Monday, October 06, 2003
Dis sucks..Dunno wat happened to the entire alignmt and stuff...sigh..
too tired to change also...
Sunday, October 05, 2003
Useless info i tot u mite wanna knoemajor revelation over jay's qing tian mtv...that prompted dis third blog entry for today..
those pics in the MTV..
they piece out...
J A Y I L O V E U
woo...
Stranded - Plumb
You know it only breaks my heart
to see you standing in the dark alone
waiting there for me to come back
i'm too afraid to show
if it's coming over you
like it's coming over me
i'm crashing like a tidal wave
that drags me out to sea
and i wanna be with you
you wanna be with me
i'm crashing like a tidal wave
and i don't wanna be
stranded, stranded, stranded, stranded
i can only take so much
these tears are turning me to rust
and i know you're waiting there for me
to come back
i'm too afraid to show
if it's coming over you
like it's coming over me
i'm crashing like a tidal wave
that drags me out to sea
and i wanna be with you
you wanna be with me
i'm crashing like a tidal wave
and i don't wanna be
stranded, stranded, stranded, stranded
i miss you, i need you
without you i'm stranded
i love you so come back
i'm not afraid to show
if it's coming over you
like it's coming over me
i'm crashing like a tidal wave
that drags me out to sea
and i wanna be with you
you wanna be with me
i'm crashing like a tidal wave
and i don't wanna be
stranded, stranded, stranded, stranded
words say it all...
btw they r a christian band..
and You refers to my Big Guy..
sigh..things aint improving bw me n Him..
btw...the pics i took for the sibu trip in my (my Aunt's) digital cam is now officially lost..
sorrie guys!
and i m too numb to feel anything...
seems like i haven touched my room comp in days...
more like i haven been touching lots of my stuff in days..cept for my ultra-nuah mattress and Smelly..
been thinking abt how many frens i m gonna lose shld i maintain my present life style of being totalli passive and uninvolved..
den again..if they require high maintenance...den maybe the tag "frens" aint dat well suited after all?
thoughts were spurred by teh coincidental mtg w ming heng on bus 518 on my way for a movie w andrew...he n the guys r now scattered all over...working etc...
even abel, the one dearest to me, has been sorta lost...
well..at least for him i knoe we wil stil be able to tok when we meet...dat tot was comforting
imagine..someone u hung ard w in a grp for say 1 yr plus....someone u ate w...mugged w....watched Young & dangerous w...simply nuahed w...
the few minutes of catching up on the bus was unbearable..
or mebbe its jus me coz i haven conversed w someone fr my past for so long my speech & brain faculty needs tweaking....
and the all familiar liner:"we (the gang) should meet up sometime" sprouted by urs truly...now dats NOTHING new..haha..tink both of us know dat aint gonna happen
i m not even thinking abt those i hav truly called kindred spirits..those who sashayed into my life and left an imprint of their love:
1) VJC - jillian, madeline, evelyn, hui shan, pei yong
2) NUS - abel, ming heng, hero, jesse, cheryl, li ying, yaoren, shank
3) Ungrped - david..coz he transcends all these institutional grpings...
4) Cell - michelle, charlene, sue-anne, lih min
yet the tot of calling them up personally or smsing them is unbearable..
i m on my way to being a social recluse...
worrying coz i m not worried....
teh combines cell mtg yez took so much out of me...minus the drama mama part abt having to enact dis role in Shaolin Soccer...
realli gave me the shudders to hav to ask ppl how r u....wat hav u been doing....oh i c...dats gd....hope u r feeling better....et cetera
by the time my room came in view at the end of the night....i barely spoke to my mum and dad (dad coz liverpool lost 2-1 last nite agst Arsenal and i was realli disturbed)......
and of coz the onli word i uttered loud yez nite was FUCk when i realised i dropped a bottle of moisturer and it cracked and contents were spilt all over the floor...
someone's gonna tell me to organise my stuff better...u can try again
mum wanted me to go for service w her today...@8...
as anyone can imagine...i zonked out totalli..
been pretty zonked these recent nites...wondering if its the work or the low bld pressure at work...plus those perpetual headaches..
wun be surprised if someone comes n tells me i hav a tumor in my brain..wun bat an eyelid
Sis's bday coming up..my 'evil' mum stole my idea to buy her an Energy album...geez..
now i hav no clue wat she wans...
mebbe a new wardrobe...hmm..
hard to buy teen stuff!!urgghhh
Friday, October 03, 2003
For the bored and totalli clueless..here;s some Garfield fun to procrastinate w =)
Thursday, October 02, 2003
INFPRead and tell me if its true..
wanna try go here
As an INFP, you are Intraverted, iNtuative, Feeling , Perceiving.
This makes your primary focus on Introverted Feeling with Extraverted Intuition.
This is defined as a NF personality, which is part of Carl Jung's Idealist (Identity Seeking) type, and more specifically the Healers or Idealist
As a weblogger, you have wonderful words to express your feelings because of your idealism. Because you don't like conflict, you may be likely to make one list of links and leave it for a long time without updating for fear of offending.
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INFP Relationships
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INFPs present a calm, pleasant face to the world. They appear to be tranquil and peaceful to others, with simple desires. In fact, the INFP internally feels his or her life intensely. In the relationship arena, this causes them to have a very deep capacity for love and caring which is not frequently found with such intensity in the other types. The INFP does not devote their intense feelings towards just anyone, and are relatively reserved about expressing their inner-most feelings. They reserve their deepest love and caring for a select few who are closest to them. INFPs are generally laid-back, supportive and nurturing in their close relationships. With Introverted Feeling dominating their personality, they're very sensitive and in-tune with people's feelings, and feel genuine concern and caring for others. Slow to trust others and cautious in the beginning of a relationship, an INFP will be fiercely loyal once they are committed. With their strong inner core of values, they are intense individuals who value depth and authenticity in their relationships, and hold those who understand and accept the INFP's perspectives in especially high regard. INFPs are usually adaptable and congenial, unless one of their ruling principles has been violated, in which case they stop adapting and become staunch defenders of their values. They will be uncharacteristically harsh and rigid in such a situation.
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INFP Strengths
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Most INFPs will exhibit the following strengths with regards to relationship issues:
Warmly concerned and caring towards others
Sensitive and perceptive about what others are feeling
Loyal and committed - they want lifelong relationships
Deep capacity for love and caring
Driven to meet other's needs
Strive for "win-win" situations
Nurturing, supportive and encouraging
Likely to recognize and appreciate other's need for space
Able to express themselves well
Flexible and diverse
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INFP Weaknesses
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Most INFPs will exhibit the following weaknesses with regards to relationship issues:
May tend to be shy and reserved
Don't like to have their "space" invaded
Extreme dislike of conflict
Extreme dislike of criticism
Strong need to receive praise and positive affirmation
May react very emotionally to stressful situations
Have difficulty leaving a bad relationship
Have difficulty scolding or punishing others
Tend to be reserved about expressing their feelings
Perfectionistic tendancies may cause them to not give themselves enough credit
Tendency to blame themselves for problems, and hold everything on their own shoulders
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INFPs as Lovers
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"To love means to open ourselves to the negative as well as the positive - to grief, sorrow, and disappointment as well as to joy, fulfillment, and an intensity of consciousness we did not know was possible before." -- Rollo May
INFPs feels tremendous loyalty and commitment to their relationships. With the Feeling preference dominating their personality, harmony and warm feelings are central to the INFP's being. They feel a need to be in a committed, loving relationship. If they are not involved in such a relationship, the INFP will be either actively searching for one, or creating one in their own minds.
INFPs tendency to be idealistic and romantically-minded may cause them to fantasize frequently about a "more perfect" relationship or situation. They may also romanticize their mates into having qualities which they do not actually possess. Most INFPs have a problem with reconciling their highly idealistic and romantic views of life with the reality of their own lives, and so they are constantly somewhat unsettled with themselves and with their close personal relationships. However, the INFP's deeply-felt, sincere love for their mates and their intense dislike of conflict keeps the INFP loyal to their relationships, in spite of their troubles achieving peace of mind.
Unlike other types who tend to hold their mates up on a pedastal, the INFP's tendency to do so does not really turn into a negative thing in the relationship. INFPs hold tightly to their ideals, and work hard at constantly seeing their mates up on that pedastal. The frequent INFP result is a strongly affirming, proud and affectionate attitude towards their mates which stands the test of time.
INFPs are not naturally interested in administrative matters such as bill-paying and house-cleaning, but they can be very good at performing these tasks when they must. They can be really good money managers when they apply themselves.
Sexually, the INFP is likely to be initially slow to open up to their mates. Once their trust has been earned, the INFP will view sexual intimacy as an opportunity for expressing their deep-seated love and affection. More than the actual sexual act, they will value giving and receiving love and sweet words. With their tendency to enjoy serving others, they may value their mates satisfaction above their own.
One real problem area for the INFP is their intensive dislike of conflict and criticism. The INFP is quick to find a personal angle in any critical comment, whether or not anything personal was intended. They will tend to take any sort of criticism as a personal attack on their character, and will usually become irrational and emotional in such situations. This can be a real problem for INFPs who are involved with persons who have Thinking and Judging preferences. "TJ"s relate to others with a objective, decisive attitude that frequently shows an opinion on the topic of conversation. If the opinion is negative, the TJ's attitude may be threatening to the INFP, who will tend to respond emotionally to the negativity and be vaguely but emphatically convinced that the negativity is somehow the INFP's fault.
For INFPs with extremely dominant Feeling preferences who have not developed their Intuitive sides sufficiently to gather good data for their decision making processes, their dislike of conflict and criticism can foretell doom and gloom for intimate relationships. These INFPs will react with extreme emotional distress to conflict situations, and will not know what to do about it. Since they will have no basis for determining what action to take, they will do whatever they can to get rid of the conflict - which frequently means lashing out irrationally at others, or using guilt manipulation to get their mates to give them the positive support that they crave. This kind of behavior does not bode well for healthy, long-term relationships. Individuals who recognize this tendency in themselves should work on their ability to take criticism objectively rather than personally. They should also try to remember that conflict situations are not always their fault, and they're definitely not the end of the world. Conflict is a fact of life, and facing it and addressing it immediately avoids having to deal with it in the future, after it has become a much larger problem.
INFPs are very aware of their own space, and the space of others. They value their personal space, and the freedom to do their own thing. They will cherish the mate who sees the INFP for who they are, and respects their unique style and perspectives. The INFP is not likely to be overly jealous or possessive, and is likely to respect their mate's privacy and independence. In fact, the INFP is likely to not only respect their mate's perspectives and goals, but to support them with loyal firmness.
In general, INFPs are warmly affirming and loving partners who make the health of their relationships central in their lives. Although cautious in the beginning, they become firmly loyal to their committed relationships, which are likely to last a lifetime. They take their relationships very seriously, and will put forth a great deal of effort into making them work.
Although two well-developed individuals of any type can enjoy a healthy relationship, INFP's natural partner is the ENFJ, or the ESFJ. INFP's dominant function of Introverted Feeling is best matched with a partner whose dominant function is Extraverted Feeling. The INFP/ENFJ combination is ideal, because it shares the Sensing way of peceiving, but the INFP/ESFJ combination is also a good match. How did we arrive at this?
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INFPs as Parents
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"You are the bows from which your children as living arrows are sent forth...
Let your bending in the archer's hand be for gladness;
For even as He loves the arrow that flies,
so He loves also the bow that is stable." -- Kahlil Gibran
INFPs are "natural" parents. They accept and enjoy the parental role, seeing it as the natural extension of their value systems. They make use of the parental role for developing and defining their values further, and consider it their task to pass their values on to their children. They take their role quite seriously. Warm, affirming, and flexible, the INFP generally makes a gentle and easy-going parent in many respects.
INFPs do not like conflict situations, and will keep themselves flexible and diverse to promote a positive, conflict-free environment in their home. The INFP is not naturally prone to dole out punishment or discipline, and so is likely to adapt to their mate's disciplinary policy, or to rely on their mates to administer discipline with the children. In the absence of a mating parent, the INFP will need to make a conscious effort of creating a structure for their children to live within.
Although the INFP dislikes punishing others, they hold strong values and will not tolerate the violation of a strongly-held belief. If they feel that their child has truly committed a wrong, the INFP parent will not have a problem administering discipline. They will directly confront the child, stubbornly digging in their heels and demanding recourse.
The INFP parent is likely to value their children as individuals, and to give them room for growth. They will let the children have their own voice and place in the family.
Extremely loving and devoted parents, INFPs will fiercely protect and support their children. If there is an issue involving "taking sides", you can bet the INFP will always be loyal to their children.
INFPs are usually remembered by their children as loving, patient, devoted, and flexible parents.
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INFPs as Friends
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INFPs are warm and caring individuals who highly value authenticity and depth in their personal relationships. They are usually quite perceptive about other people's feelings and motives, and are consequently able to get along with all sorts of different people. However, the INFP will keep their true selves reserved from others except for a select few, with whom they will form close and lasting friendships. With their high ideals, they are likely to be drawn to other iNtuitive Feelers for their closer friendships.
With their strong need for harmony and dislike of conflict, INFPs may feel threatened by people with strong Judging and Thinking preferences. Although they're likely to be able to work well professionally with such individuals, they may have difficulty accepting or appreciating them on a personal level. They generally feel a kinship and affinity with other Feeling types.
INFPs will be valued by their confidantes as genuine, altruistic, deep, caring, original individuals.
Wednesday, October 01, 2003
Lazy Chill-outk...we lost!*&^$#%@%^& to charlton?!
wat were u doing kewell??useless (*&^%##@^&*(...
fetching my rusty pom poms fr the storerm...tink they need a wake-up call...
u knoe it's a gd dae when u can:
1) sleep till u drool and its only 9plus in the morn..
2) read everything u can lay ur hands to..and not worrie abt work..
3) hav breakfast servec to u without having to move an inch..*thks mum! =)*
4) play jay chou's songs live n loud in ur room...in the dae....
5) Thank God its Children's Dae!!
Life's a bliss....sigh
my kiddos were real sweeties...tink they lurve the campy stationary sets (WTF is the brand Ku Ku Ma Lu aniwae??)..they dun seem to mind...but i guess wat intrigued them more was the jelly in a tube...they went GA-GA!!
next time i shall juz feed them w food...
same for the more well-to-do step-kiddos i hav fr the other class..tehy got their yam yams...gosh i shld hav saved some for myself...
the yam yam w the bear and sprinklies one is sooooo adorable...
GOSH...k...i m being so girlie..it disgusts me!!!?!!@#%#^$^$&*&%@
the retro-ah-go-go dance routine did well...*i hope*...ramesh is the man!!!hahaa
one kiddo commented me and my shaking butt =PP
and..victor is the chicken of the moment...he and his rooster antics inthe chicken dance wins hands down anytime!!not forgetting the other 5 hens gyrating w him to the chicken song...woo..
tink i m getting my groove for hip hop...at least juz a teenie weenie bit...haha
hic...back is stiull aching fr that THAT floorwork on mon...
seems like i haven been loggin on for quite a while...can imagine hw zonked out i hav been dis daes...*.*
my wanna-be-cool mendhi on my hand courtesy of noraida is not fading FAST...been getting those looks fr ppl...call dat gd or bad...
I M NOT DISEASED!!STOP TAKINGTHOSE SECOND LOOKS!!N I M A CHINESE K?!@!@#@$!!
jus realise i hav no bfs to lament or lavish abt on my blog...
its ME MYSELF n I!!!!=) *psss....and jay of coz!*
hahahhaa...no offense mich..=)
been tinking i need to get out more...go hang out etc...
yet i m totalli comfy w my life rite nw...work...home...dinners near home....exercise...
frens...my com....my jay.....dats life! =)
which reminds me i need to jiang duo hua yu so dat i can increase my chances of snagging jay shld i one day manage to scramble my way to taiwan and into his presence....*whee*
and....I WANNA GO SPAIN!!!!!!!!!
dis is wat advertsemts do to u...gosh and i callmyself a marketing student...*sigh*
gonna save up...take a free n easy hol there....
pick up some spanish beyond uno-dos-tres.....
minus the greasy oily slickbag ricky martin..
oh and memory's deluding me again..sorrie elison for forgetting abt the training..i realli forgot...sigh..tot was today...u can call me bird-brain..i wun retaliate
actualli thinking abt it..i hav fantastic memory when it comes to music...
let me give u an eg...
i may not know wat some ppl r singing in chinese songs...*u all knoe who i mean =)* but as long as i can hear the song...i can sing (like wat leanna calls it) SOUND for SOUND...
shall add dis to my list of strengths in SWOT!
k..rambled on long enuff...
hmm STUPID WHITE MEN or POI CHING SCH compo stack?
To do or not to do..
dats the question!
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