Wednesday, December 31, 2003
LAst Entry of 2003Dun mean to be mushy and nostalgic...but it's been a tough year.
Lost some v close frens...gained a few acquaintances....
Had my health and lost it quite a couple of times....
Experienced hell during my practicum....
Looking back, it;s been a roller coaster.
Yet i thank God for all dat He has blessed me...the blessings have been tremendous..and always come juz when i needed them i.e at the nadir points of my life.
Angels to be w me when i cry and hurt the most....Thank u my angels!
FAmily to surround and rally ard me when i fell.....I love u all.
Pals to calm the madness and confusion ard me when i m lost.....thank u for helping me find the direction.
The cell for being my spiritual family...keeping me anchored to the Big Guy.
All in all...i didnt do/complete the things i planned @ the beginning of dis year.
I may not have achieved much financially, physically (ignore my tum tum)..yet i m emotionally rich, not to the point of being too emotional.
Inspired to write a letter to myself on my birthday and keep it till the next year, fr one of the articles in the Straits Times. Shall read it and see how much i hav changed abielt aged.
Good bye 2003....and say HELLO to 2004.
" The very least you can do in your life is to figure out what you hope for. And the most you can do is to live inside that hope. Not admire it from a distance but live right in it, under its roof."
Barbara Kingsolver
Monday, December 29, 2003
Freaky MondaeFinalli made my way to sch todae...after much struggle in the morning. Actualli managed to wake up at 7.30am?! Gosh even i myself m impressed w me!
Nothing much to blog abt the mtg...'cept i will be specialising in EL again next yr, specifically P4 EL and P5 EM3 El, P4 Sci, P6 HE & P4 SS. Wat's wierd is they r all DIFFERENT classes and i hav no form class?! Sigh...guess dats the most disapointing part..abt not having a class odf my own. Tho there is a nudging tot that i hav NO admin watever to do....hmmm...
I m stil disappointed. =P
Oh watever..guess the Big Guy has His plans all crafted out. Giving me 2 weak classes is realli a challenge. Tink i need more tonics next year..in case the kiddos happen to be blood suckers!LOL!
Another freaky thing happened before the start of the mtg. CArina was msging me telling me to book a seat for her as she wanan tell me smthing. Tot it was smthing real impt and serious...and guess wat...sigh (it mus be juz me)..she wanna set me up w dis guy who she said is realli nice and is her hubby's good fren. So i was invited to her New Yr Eve's dinner @ her mom's house.
Tot her i had the countdown thingy w the cell @ fort canning green....she;s realli persistent but i juz cant pic myself gg down...
Anyway..she';s one sweet hot taken chick...absolutely love her!=)
Doc's diagnosis abt my rashes is dat my skin is realli dry and mebbe i shldnt bathe twice a day coz my skin cant replenish its moisture?! Dat will be sooo gross....and the doc juz laughed and said anyway it will help to save water...DUH!
Sigh...no choice if not my ezcema will not improve.
CAnt pic sleeping w/out showering! DUn hav to shy away fr me..i definitely shower b4 i come out! Now hav to try not getting myself 'dirty' wheni m out...which is an INCREDIBLE feat.
Hungry again....no..i m not gonna have supper again....hmm tom yum or dried mee?..no...no..i will not succumb....mebbe a cup of steaming hot milo?......URGHHH
Dis is killing me!
Nuah Sunday
Slept half of my day away...muz be the movie lastnite and coming back @ 4plus...
Feeling a bit sick...getting the chills again....
wat tp do but go lie down and sleep *agaiN* till evening. It was horrible.
Managed to share smthing w my mum juz now...tink a huge burden was lifted and i dun feel so bad. She has dis amazing calming factor abt her...of coz..after her "i told u..blah blah" stuff.
So gonna c a doc tom...skin is getting bad. I feel lousy but my mum's been such a uplifter.
LAstest news abt allocation next yr...gonna be floating (sigh) and teaching P5 EM3 Eng...among other things undiscovered. Dunno how i feel...esp whether i fit the bill.
If i ever find out dis is coz they SABO me...dats it! But tink mebbe God is teaching me smthing. Juz dunno wat it is (double sigh).
Mtg up next in 7 hrs time. Need to grab beauty sleep. Chow!
Friday, December 26, 2003
Boxing Day Specialpiper juz said she doesnt wan to sing sleepydog a birthday song...tok abt a fren of 13+ years!Hurphh!
oh well...anyway we r gonna call her...after yina comes...
and if u r reading babe...
HAPPY BIRTHDAY SWEETIE!!!!!
okie...piper has dropped the bomb..its not 10 ppl...but 10+++(note the 3 pluses behind dat!) ppl coming...including me.
oh well...juz means more potatoes to mash for the shepherd's pie....which means my right arm muscle will ache...which means it will get bigger then the left one..which means i will look unbalanced!geez...things u do for frenship!
Hope the party's fun later...if not..i shall juz douse everyone will vodka and TA-DA...it will be FUN!=)
Told piper anyone wans teh vodka gotta say a codename....and den he/she gets the prized alcohol! Fun eh?
Urghhh waiting for my gunbound to be dloaded and installed on nora's com...lalalallalala
dis is taking too long...
piper juz told me deeky's added 2 more characters r added....presenting the bearded dwarf maidens!!LOL!
anyway, i cant understd his story...mus be way too deep...
juz like his blog title "for the love of Sophie"...which actualli means..Philosophy..
Ermmm get it?
Cougar's staring at me rite now...shall go pet him...
BTW he's a cat..in case u dunno!
k..end of my so-called life...for now..
Wednesday, December 24, 2003
checked out piper's blog...nice!!She had dis reali nice template, cept dat the backgrd's kinda dark and i had to squint to read. Hmm mebbe its my eyes. Oh well..nothing much to say actualli...juz kidna scary how things happen so fast and time realli flies. forgot to blog abt my mum's baptism...my cell's xmas party...etc etc...
and where was i all dis while?
Come to tink of it, i realli dunno. My room is STILL in the same mess since the beginning of time....and i actualli cld squeeze in time to gunbound. Man, i m disgusting.
Anyway, managed to earn a couple more gold. My aim to buy the arabian costume avatar is stil so far away...sigh. Currently, i m specialising in my bot J.D. who has powerful abilities to suck ppl so they bungee off and die...and i will hear dis satisying rattling of coins as the gold roll in. Marvelous!
Yeah...dats the long and short of my so-called life. Xmas is coming and will be gone soon...decided not to spend overnite w the ministry ppl tom for xmas eve...didnt feel particularly "social"...lol...
Now playing in my discman:
Hogging piper's REM cd...didnt knoe i m actualli a closet fan...and hw many hits they had!
Fav song @ the moment - Imitation of Life
Charades, pop skill
Water hyacinth, named by a poet
Imitation of life
Like a koi in a frozen pond
Like a goldfish in a bowl
I don't want to hear you cry
That's sugarcane that tasted good
That's cinnamon, that's Hollywood
Come on, come on, no-one can see you try
You want the greatest thing
The greatest thing since bread came sliced
You've got it all, you've got it sized
Like a Friday fashion show teenager
Freezing in the corner
Trying to look like you don't try
That's sugarcane that tasted good
That's cinnamon, that's Hollywood
Come on, come on, no-one can see you try
No-one can see you cry
That's sugarcane that tasted good
That's freezing rain, that's what you could
Come on, come on, no-one can see you cry
This sugarcane
This lemonade
This hurricane, I'm not afraid
Come on, come on, no-one can see me cry
This lightning storm
This tidal wave
This avalanche, I'm not afraid
Come on, come on, no-one can see me cry
That's sugarcane that tasted good
That's who you are, that's what you could
Come on, come on, no-one can see you cry
That's sugarcane that tasted good
That's who you are, that's what you could
Come on, come on, no-one can see you cry
*wat can i say? SImple yet the song says it all...
Tuesday, December 23, 2003
Tired...Actuallitoo zombified to write anything after the xmas cell party..
well..found dis fr my sis...realli cool..
btw..i m NORMAL!
Try this. It really works. Unless ur a freak or sumthing...
While sitting at your desk make CLOCKWISE circles with your RIGHT FOOT.
While doing this, draw the number "6" in the air with your RIGHT HAND.
Your foot will change direction.
Unbelievable? Believe it!
Saturday, December 20, 2003
Finally LOTR has come and gone..*sigh*I feel the emptiness...can u feel it? Halfway during the show, i kept telling myself, dis movie is IS going to end...so no worries i will be left high and dry again like the last 2.
Felt so stirred during the battle scenes (Battle of Plennor Fields)..whee! Disgusting orcs and the likes, the towering structures, their blades...WOOH!
Think the director gave the gals a feast of Legolas =) Slow-mo shots...focusing his chiselled face and flowing long REBONDED white hair..he has the immortal aura!
Give it for the man!! Ermm..I mean elf!
Mebe its a case of over-expectation..wat with the wait and all the hype. Somehow, as much as i enjoyed the movie, it didnt realli match up to my expectations. FOr instance, the so-called action on Legolas part was a tad anti-climax, tho he subdued the mammoth. And the ending is a wee bit draggy...
Conclusions abt LOTR: ROTK
1) All the hobbits r faggots, save for Sam who got married.
How do i knoe? Did u notice those fleeting glaze Merry and Pippin had when they look at each other? Not to mention Frodo hugging Sam in their "last" moments...gives new meaning to dying in each others' arms!
See, Frodo HAS to leave coz he cant take it sharing his man w Rosie. How can he fight against a buxomed woman-hobbit, and w 2 cute kids to boot? He aint gonna produce offspring for Sam. So too bad for him. Yours Truly deduce dat he'll prolly die alone in the immortal world in the company of glowing elves, complete w a harp playing in the backgrd. Such is the meaning of unrequited love..alas!
2) Inspirational hairstyles abound in the Middle Earth. If u wanna join the party, u gotta know which side of the camp u r on. For dat..ans the follwoing qns:
a) Do you hav bone-straight hair? (Courtesy of rebonding)
Yes - u r an ELF!
No - sorrie, Legolas is not gonna cast u a second look.
b) Do your hair consist of big bangly curls that look like they have been doused in grease?
Yes - COngrats, u r a HUMAN!
No - Sorrie, Gondor's nor Rohan's gonna be ur hometown!
c) Do ur hair frizz?
Yes - Woo...a DWARF u r!u r the one who gets to ride w Legolas ALL THE TIME! WHOO!
No - well, too bad!
d) Are you bald?
Yes - Dis is a lil' sad...u r the bad guy. Dis will also mean u r UGLY..hav bad teeth/breath/attitude. FAce it, u still hav many compatriots who share the same agony.
No - High chance r, u r the good fella! Answer the first 3 qns!
e) Ribbony curls sound like u? U find it hard to see eye-to-eye w creatures fr another culture?
Yes - Hobbit u shall be!
No - Wat can i say? At least u r taller den these wee halflings!
f) Not completely bald, save for a few fray strands on ur impossibly bid head?
Yes - Yes..yeSss..YESSSS...my preciousssssss!
No - Thank God u still hav hope!
3) Every normal person gets his/her pair. If u find dat u dun have a partner, well, its still not too late. read point 1 for revelation.
The Pairings:
Faramir - Eoywn
Aragorn - Arwen
Merry - Pippin
Sam - Rosie
Legolas - Gimli
Galadriel - Hubby Celeborn
Gollum - THe Ring
Saruman - Sauron
Dats all for now folks! Tune in again next time for....LOTR: The Specialsssss...
Friday, December 19, 2003
Good News!!many things dat i wanna thank God for yez...but blogger was down..
so here they r..
1) I m gonna be Godma Elise! Hmm it soubds cool already =) not like mich who doesnt wan the kiddo to call her auntie or anything..well i dun mind =)
whenu cant have ur own kids yet...there is always dis "rental" system if u become god parents...that is hav all teh fun u wan w the kiddos but be able to giev them back to their rightful owners after. Sounds realli cool to me...i m gonna be the coolest (together w mich) god ma there is...
gotta make sure audz look like funky mum and not a dowdy pj wearer =)
Heh..Congrats my darls ben and audz!
2) My darling sis is going to Meridian Jc. =) Very proud of her as i knoe she's the type who puts in so much hard work while my disgusting bro uses his wits. She had her top choice too - Science course. Dun wan her to feel pressured to enter jc or worse...the top 5. i tink Meridian suits her to a T - tink a nice encouraging and non-competitive environmt will do her gd. =) Well done ah mui!=)
3) Apple's pregnant too! =) Whee....know uncle vun was working hard..lol.
Real happy to see them today...v sweet of them to bring dav and me ard JB to eat, shop and eat somemore. Gotta schedule more amore classes!
Tink i was the biggest spender of all...bought 3 pieces of stuff...which i couldnt resist coz they were realli cheap compared to s'pore. Settled my xmas gift exchange stuff also!=) almost exactly 5 sing bucks!
Warning to all who think dat the Sing-Johor Express is realli express...coz its not. I freakingly waited for abt 30 mins for one to appear...to bring me fr the Johor customs to S'pore side...and another 20++ mins for the bus to ferry us fr the S'pore customs. Geez...den no cab...walk like crazy to find place to pee....and in the end stll took a bus back to parkway to take cab home!
Left at 8 plus...reach hm ard 11++. I hate buses!=PP
Oops...TVB is calling me...brb
Tuesday, December 16, 2003
juz done with the Straits Times..yeah amid the news of Saddam's capture and all, another less significant article caught my eye, prob due to my AA status.It tried to encourage dousing someone w alcohol to be an accurate indicator of the person's true character. How true, i thought! Without the inhibitions we all place upon ourselves, somewat in us there will always be a repressed side and the alcohol is kinda like a cataylst in unravelling dat side of us we prefer ppl can;t see.
How we react under the glisty lights, fast music and alcohol burning our faces and bodies can be pretty enlightening.
Me?U guys prolly know i belong to the silent sleepy kind, cept for the innocuous (the kind dat does not NOT irritate anyone =) ) and slightly high-pitched lauhgter, which is a dead give-away. Wat does dat say about me?Hmm....prolly my evil side is way too repressed it doesnt even come out in my drunken stupor.
Anyway, i tot the article was pretty interesting...the other method is playing mahjong, which i tink it's hard to apply dat theory for someone who doesnt do it often w frens.
So, up to dis point, anyone wanna borrow my Absolut?=)
Wats playing: Season of Loneliness by DAvid Tao.
Lots of guitar plucking dat entrances me..still after many repeats.
Kinda get wat he's singing...all abt lonelinesss, being alone...juz in different combinations of chinese words and various cool vocab.
BTW tink the cd is skipping badly..wonder if i overplayed it. OOps!?
Monday, December 15, 2003
Stufftink if wanna see photos...muz check out mich's site...tho i tink they r not up yet...juz a small preview on her blog..
btw jay chou's playing on it now..so..warning to anti-jay fellas!!=P
went to the bank today to replace my atm...sadly i tink it'll be hard to get the wallet back..esp not hearing fr the tour company the hwole of yez and today.
surprising im not too upset...cept for being pissed @ my usual dodo self...well..i m practicalli ok. =)
of coz..ws kinda shocked when i was told tat the i-a/c dat i wanted to open has to hav a mininum of 3K!?!
i dun feel rich at all..sigh. anyway i was quite dodo and told them i wanted to change out of my campus a/c to dat i-a/c...before knowing the min..and kinda revealed i m not a student anymore..
nm..intergrity!!!i hold fast to dat!
next thing will be to wait for my dearly-missed debit card...3-4 working days..hmm dat will mean its coming in either wed or thurs.
feel kinda lost without it coz its like walking ard knowing the money dat u hav in ur wallet is abt all dat u hav..and i had like 5 bucks?!lol if stomach starts growling or smthing i prolly cantget a hearty meal...sobsob
tink will wait for a while b4 i go apply for a new ic...rite now i juz hope when i c any R/A shows or go play pool...they will not ask to c it...
i still find it extremely embarassing to be verified...not dat i hav youthful looking skin or anything...its my size and face.
I dun wanna grow up
I m a Toy'R Us kid!!!
dis is often not my motto..for obvious reasons!
well..after writing my deep tots the last entry...decided to be bimbotic here. =)
gonna rebond my hair on wed..coz tom gg for hip hop and hav to sweat so the cant-wash-hair-for-2-days-thing is gonna be gross. Wanna snip off parts of the hair...getting wuite long and gross.
Received my Absolut Blackcurrant Vodka fr piper todae...yippe!!thks to my god-dad i hav a drink for xmas!
Sigh..if onli i hav a digi cam..can show u guys...heee...my pride and joy is standing on my table! tink the AA in me is acting up again..
Also got for my mum dis gorgeous cross with a weeny diamond in the middle!!!!plus a chain!!cost me a bit lah...but was worth it!!
haven shown her yet..wan it to be a surprise baptism gift!=)
its confirmed on dis sat...cant wait to see the look on her face..hee hee...
whee!!!its branded k...lee hwa one!!no joke! was on sale lah..=)
LOTR:ROTK COUNTDOWN: 3 Days 22hrs 30 mins
Sunday, December 14, 2003
Getaway...k..juz read mich's blog...i look horrible in photos...plus the curls..its a killer!=P
sigh....
Still recovering fr the almost 9 hours coach ride back....talk abt endurance...dis is definitely one test!
Enjoyed the trip tremendously...like wat mich said..its the company dat made the difference. However, thought a lot during trip....mostly when the gals r talking...tink i didnt say a lot but dat doesnt mean i was not processing..
basically, mich, u care a lot abt boo (like we dun knoe =) )..a lot more den u knoe...the way u always mention him and rem him doing or saying certain things...its juz like when u r in love with smthing, u never fail to talk abt it constantly.
so...treasure wat u hav and yet hold it with open palms...if God shld bless it or take it away, either way the Lord knows will be the best for u.
for audz, i was realli touched when u said dat u missed ben...even for a day. This longing transcends the wife-hubby thing...yep..the magic word again..LOVE. When u feel like things r taking a toll on u....juz rem dat feeling when u r without him...dat sense of void coz u r oneness w each other. Then all the hics along the way will seem way too trivial to mention....
and...patience my dear..its a value we must all learn. be patient w each other and give time. there;s a lot of things for us to unlearn fr our past. =)
knoe i m the last fit person to give any advice..well..juz kinda putting my 2 cents worth. =)
as for me...i hav learnt a lot fr u gals...
for all the trials u go thru, it was not for nothing. They moulded u into the way u r now..beautiful and ever so thankful to the Lord. And i get the free ride in learning abt the lessons of life.
1) Life is never too hard for anybody. God does not allow thigs to happen if He deems the person unable to overcome it...meaning, He knows everything and the best for us. Anyone who kao be abt his/her life again...pls seek consultation w mich. =)
With dis, i applaud u dear..for ur courage in adversity and ur strength.
2) To give is the greater part den receiving. In any relationship, giving is always the more difficult part but in the end, seeing the party who receives it glow w joy is the ultimate reward. Look far, at the big picture. And aptly quoting fr mich, we shld all learn to "hold my tongue".
i owe dis 2 valuable lessons to my babes. =) thks!
seems like when God wans to speak, there;s no stopping Him. Cant rem wat the title of the sermon but for the first time after quite a long period, I realise He was speaking to me..so personally. Tink its time i end my 'long vacation' and align back to wat He wans to do. yeah, it is scary, knowing He may do things dat i dun particularky fancy having or losing in my life....on the other hand, i onli hav dis self-centred life to lose.
He brought back so many memories of things when i was down on mu knees..some things i rather forget...some i cld harly rem...yet all were so familiar and close to my heart.
Anyway..side entertainmt..in case u guys r asleep at dis point...i actualli checked w hee guan abt J.T;s status...lol...cant believe i did it but it was a dare fr myself to see if i hav the guts. well..too bad he's taken...lol...shall hav to try another one!=)
Gosh writing serious stuff makes me tired...yawn...wondering if i shld make dat tom yum cup noodles or juz sleep out the growling in my tummy.
Still find it hard to believe i caught a ultra-sad HK movie where a character loses his lil' daughter and regrets the things he did/did not do....another male character dies before he gets a chance to be w someone....a missed opportunity dat never came again when one guy had an accident and missed the date dat he's been waiting for..
Carpe diem....dats wat came to my mind.
Its time to throw dat procrastinating self out of the window.
Geez..i didnt even knoe the movie will hav such deep msgs...i kinda watched it coz i saw julian cheung in it...
and of coz...mybro's pork ball..yu si man!
Wednesday, December 10, 2003
RunawayYUp..the above title is wat i m gonna do..tom!Similarky titled track fr one of dav tao's songs too.
Been listening to his Ultrasound album...armed with fully translated lyrics of his songs fr his site i fully understand wat he's singing abt. Yup..i finalli manaaged to locate his ripped album fr my bro's rm....neatly tucked away in a whole box of ripped cds and games...shoulda known it was there.
every song seems to reflect some part of my life...hence dis somewat philosop-nostlagic entry.
no jokes so far yeah?see...i m in serious mood.
doesnt help datnow dido is playing on the comp....she's soo good...soothing voice in a non-ballady syrupy way.
heading my way to bukit tinggi tom(i tink...rite mich?)...gonna be a 2 day one nite affair.
hope it'll be a gd getaway..at least i m absolutely sure its w great company =)
audz's dinner set me thinking abt wedding stuff...her dinner went on well...cept for a few initial hics (which dinner dun hav)...all was well!Phew!
i came to realise i will indeed appreciate the next wedding dinner i m gonna attend...as a GUEST!=)
and i firmly stick to my marqee in the botanic gardens....light music playing...buffet style...wat u wanna eat juz grab...and of coz...romantic dance in the middle....making sure my gown will hav dat useful loop so i can hook onto my finger and waltz away in peace knowing no one's gonna trample on my train...
firstly. its cheaper den a dinner @ any hotel...i dunneed to fuss abt guests i dun knoe...coz they can stuff themselves w food for all i care..
and i can eat...ALL i wan...(i hope)...prance ard without knocking into tables...and b a gorgeous bride!hahhaha
dats wat icall self-entertainmt...of coz..w my groom..whoever he is.
Dreams yeah? i hardly dream nowadays so jzu let me self-indulge a lil'...
its nice to fantasise and not hav the reality check at the back of ur mind.
yeah..i can crash and burn later...rite now..w the cool cozy oh-i-wanna-cuddle-up-in-my-bed-rite-now rain, i m in my own world =)
rem the 3 hot hunks i mentioned? well...frankly speaking..i will prefer the david-tao pattern...yeah nerdy as he is...he's Godfearing and there;s always dis magnetic power Godly men hav on me.
Mebbe its the presence of the Lord...i dunno...it juz feels peaceful, calm. Perfect love casts out all fear yeah? i wan some of dat.
Big Guy...u will hav to settle dat for me yeah? ;)
Tuesday, December 09, 2003
Simple Pleasuresits a nite of hot hunks!!=)
first there was rodrigue santoro in Love Actualli who was ULTIMATEly droolsome!! His bod was oh so perfect!! *swoon*
den there was luo jia liang on SCV Ch55 playing dis goody guy...sigh....no wonder he;s the AUntie Killer...well..he got me hooked!! *swoon*
and last but not least, my sis (bless her dear dear soul) came in juz now to tell me jay chou's mtv was on...wooh!
its the new one dat i ahven caught...Broken String.
*Swoon*
i m in seventh heaven....
lest u tink i m horny and stuff...
well...lets juz say i m counting my blessings!=)
Monday, December 08, 2003
TAlents...more talentsdavid tao is awesome!okie...as an honest observer, jay chou can realli stand aside when it comes to vocals. David is awesome...or hav i mentioned dat before?=)
the band is great...guitarist jamie or smthing is incredible...his nimble fingers kinda grafted to the guitar..with perfect timing and plucking...gosh!
mix of songs were great too...jazzy beats, celtic backing, band metal heavy fluff...name it..he's got it!
sigh...to tink dat i dun even knoe much of his songs...
as i hav said before...i m in awe!=)
and he speaks english momentarily!!
k...dis spells danger for jay chou....hmm...
doesnt help dat dav thanked God for recovering his voice...u wunn't have known he lost his voice in the morn b4 the concert!woo!
in the meantime still looking for the Ultrasound album dat my bro has ripped...
there;s a reason to be organised and label ALL teh stuff u burn!!!
Sunday, December 07, 2003
SaturdayIt's been a long day...esp now @3.30am on SUnday. Came back fr the airport folding some paper lily-like flowers for the carolling thing we r doing..supposed to be gifts for the ppl we r visiting.
Listening to dis song written and recorded by Jia Sheng (yup..the AHS guy)...very touched by the lyrics..titled Jesus died for me. Wish i cld upload it online..mite take a while to do it...gimme some time.
THere's another thing dat came to my attention todae...dis guy named Jonathan Tan fr my church. Didnt knoe he can write songs and play the guitar so well. Apparently he's the producer of the new Youth Worship CD. I m in awe of dis fella...he;s prob ard my age or older...still...the talent is trememdous! Sigh..*still in awe* he came out w his own cd last year..all songs written by him...not all r very gd but hey...dis guy has done smthing i will never be able to do...*stuck in awe*
Had a tiring session of carolling practice..even my sis was dead tired. Think need to work more on my diaphragm...and have to MEMORISE ALL the lyrics to the carols!DUH! i dun even wanna think abt it!
know there r lotsa things to do and dates to rem when to do them or when they hap but somehow they r all swimming inside my head!urghhh..k..for starters, happened to geta free tix to David Tao's concert tom (i mean todae). Den Monday i hav hip hop plus movie "Love Actualli"....tue is audz;s dinner, wed take a breather, thurs and fri gonna be in msia...sat service plus SOL Round 2 if i can make it...
LOTR on 19? i tink,....hmm...cant hardly wait!
Thursday, December 04, 2003
TalkAs i was talking to shank on the phone, i kinda realise a major revelation abt myself - that i aint in a relationship not so much as in not having guys in my life but more so for the fact that i aint gonna spare the effort and heartache to go thru all the nitty gritty things dat u get in the package called Relationship. Of coz there's the other fact that there aint no guys...hahah so i m problem free yeah? =)
He didnt take it too well...but final conclusion on my part is that God will take care of dat and i m not in a position to go on a guilt trip or blame myself. Asked him how he can feel so strongly towards me after so long but all he cld say was he didnt know as well and this fact of not knowing scares him too. My response? I jus held my tongue, kinda flabbergasted.
Anyone who knows me will knoe...come on...i m not a NICE person (and i m honestly not fishing for any disagreemts to make myself feel better)...i hav my flaws, faults, bad stupid idiosyncracies. I hold on to my firm belief taht it will take a lot for someone to realli like me for who i m...and i m not kidding nor is dis statement stemming fr a gal w low self-estemm. I hav long gone over dat.
*k..i can hear ppl disagreeing (i hope!haha=) ) but its the truth and nothing but the truth*
Still assessing if i feel bad giving up dis chance...coz rite now no one knoes wats gonna happen...but somehow being able to write all dis out means i aint feeling i hav lost anything. At most, its a friendship which i tink wld hav been realli great and loads of fun.
The Big Guy has His ways so i shall leave Him to do wat He;s best at.
Part of me is feeling scared dat i can divide things up so well....wats emotional..wats not...dat i m being to feel i may be indeed numb inside. If its true, it'll be realli sad, aint it?
So here's a toast to facing the next year as Elise and onli Elise =)
Anyway, enuff blabbing. Spent the incredible day with Mich. Nothing spectacular, no special activities...yet it meant a lot to me to juz chill out and talk. Accomplished wat we sent out to do..at least Mich did..which is to get smting to wear for audz's wedding dinner. Tink for me i will juz grab wat i already hav and go for it.
Personalli witnessed how SWG is played. Totalli cool! Imagine being in a virtual reality world dat is as dynamic as the real one. You can practically live ur REAL life out there..at some planet...set up ur home and be realli happy.
Its amazing! Cept for the $120 bucks price tag and the monthly subscription fee, is stopping this cheapo fr jumping straight into Tatooine. Shucks!
Nm...there's always Gunbound to depend on when u need it!
Currently 6000++ gold...need 3000+ gold coins before i can purchase a simple piece of avatar! SIgh! Its hard work...but i aint dissauded.
Reading dis ultimate cool book "Coffee & Kung Fu" abt dis gal whose life is inspired by Jackie Chan Kung Fu Shows. We r not talking abt Shanghai Noon but real old Hongkie kinda shows which he did in the past. Absoluately love her way she views life...i.e. similar to my warped up thinking!
Well..after dis "dodo" book...it will be on to an "intelligent" book.
Hey, a gal has to balance wat she is getting into her head, yeah?
Wednesday, December 03, 2003
Truth abt de DATEtink it was practically a scene fr a movie or drama...
first the couple will meet and den they plan to go for a movie after dinner.
dinner was splendid...nice food...prawns r carefulli shelled mind u.
cool conversation...onli...
the guy excuses himself and leaves halfway...onli to return with a huge bouquet of roses.
any normal female wld hav swoon by now yeah?
well...i guess as much...cept dis one who felt weirder as the nite progresses.
she didnt do anything to deserve dis fine treatment and smhow someone who used to be so familiar aint anymore.
mebbe its coz she;s grown and changed?or jus not exactly expecting all dis "date" stuff when she agreed on gg out?
tink she's baffled too.
and the part abt how God is divinely in everything...for letting them chance upon each other again...
getting sms the next day which says he;s been thinking abt her...
getting a call which she couldnt realli take oz she's outside and supposed to call back but hadnt...
it's juz bizarre dis is my life and all dis confusion doesnt fit in.
The Big Guy better figure out smthing for me quick if not i prob drown in such onslaught of unwanted attention.
and the most natural way i deal w stuff? RUN!
yeah...i m one contradictory gal...some things i wan but cant get...some things i dun realli need and its all there.
ain;t dat arrogant to say my life's like a melodrama...but tink i knoe and seen enuff to make one up.
supposed to pen dwn tots abt Igby Goes Down...
weird but cool movie...heart juz kinda aches w the characters but found myself laughing at the twistedness of the whole film.
anyway..audz u told me to check out mark or smthing yeah on frinedster?so for the first thing in eons i actualli went there...
well..wat can i say...God-loving, jay chou and gunbound fan..i m won over alreadi!
hahahha..juz amazes me how an ang moh can love Chinese stuff so much...
kinda makes dis yellow-skin fella feel ashamed of herself!
This is a strange world indeed!
Btw..camp's off!Officially declare myself ( and the other 2 guilty fellas) AWOL!
Cut my nails..gonna hav private worship session in my room...
Reflection word?
"Be joyful always; pray continually; give thanks in all circumstances, for this is God's will for you in Christ Jesus." 1 Thess 5:16
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