Wednesday, July 25, 2007
Where shall I start?I had the luxury of staying at home today while my fellow colleagues are slogging it out in school. Gives me the time to reflect upon what He revealed during Sunday's service. Tried to wait in His presence at least twice last week, taking time out from ever-mounting marking and work but it did not seem those 'I'm sure He's there' moment. Maybe I was too tired. The funny thing is when I prayed last night for the people in my list and their blessings, including my class, I actually fell asleep...and started mumbling strange prayers which were probably random thoughts in my head. I bet God is having a great time laughing at me upon hearing strange incoherent prayers.
Starting thinking about the meaning of fatigue on Saturday, during the play of King Lear. Maybe mentally I was quite exhausted to really appreciate it to the fullest. I was straining my ears the whole time and processing what the actors were saying. It didn't help that I have not read the play, though I knew the gist of the story. At the end of it all, of course, as in the greatest tragedy, I sniffled and controlled my tears, but not without frying all my brain cells and setting brain activity into hyperdrive.
In the words of my colleague YL, she called me 'bo si teng', loosely translated as cannot sit still. This is largely due to the fact that being my cubicle neighbour, she has witnessed me getting in and out of my cubicle countless time within an hour and mostly, I'm not at my seat. I started wondering if it is due to the new 'position' which is given that caused me so much work that I cannot manage to handle the added jobs on top of everyday marking load.
So as I was listening to a friend telling me how tired he was and all in his teaching job, inside I was pondering the whole meaning and purpose of being 'busy'. If God wants me to make a difference, why will I be fluttering from place to place and task to task? Whenever I mention how busy I am to people around me, I seem to get the impression that I am brushed over.
"Yah, you are busy. We all are..."
Thus, I've given up talking to people about it since I felt I sound whiny. To tell the truth, if you ask me what I am busy with, I probably will be stuck and unable to answer you.
I'm beginning to appreciate the worship time during service. Somehow, He always ministers through ps Eugene's words. This week, it's from Jer 29:11-13...
11 For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. 12 Then you will call upon me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. 13 You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart.
The word 'plans' seems to pop out. Plural, not singular unit. More than one. To prosper me, not to harm me. To give me hope and a future.
In times like these, I thank Him that I still have this blog to rant to...and sort out my thoughts as I type the words out. I guess this blog has gone beyond its initial purpose, of updating my life with the other two dears, to becoming an avenue for me to reflect. Like a trusty friend I thought I never had to bounce off ideas and thoughts with. A constant companion that listens and absorbs whatever my complaints or sharing may be.
Anyway, I'm thinking about the Corrine May's concert and decided I shall not go. Even if I am to venture there alone, the entire thing is not worth the cab fare. NUS Cultural Centre! I can just imagine the crowds...the taxi queue.
On a lighter note, I just saw the trailer of 'Secrets', a cheena movie directed by jay. I know it is probably sucky and all...but this one...I shall go for even if I can't con anyone into it!
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